I usually do not take the time to celebrate my victories, my accomplishments and my wins but September has been filled with things that I wanted to write down. I want to be able to look back at this in a few months or maybe a year or two, on a day when I am feeling like nothing is going right for me in my art practice or a day when I feel like I am am not “good enough.” I wanted to have a record of these amazing little milestones and happy moments because when I am living in the moment sometimes I just don’t celebrate all of the amazing things that happen to me (because of my hard work) from time to time.
Two weeks ago an amazing article was written about me in Creative Loafing, and it also mentioned FRINGE. Most importantly, the author Jennifer Ring told my story as an artist first - something that most people don't ask about at all. Anyway, I was lucky enough that the article was published both online and in the print version of the weekly newspaper. I hunted down a couple of hard copies and to my surprise, it was a full page spread! It felt really really good to open that weekly chronicle and see a giant picture my artwork surrounded by positivity. I cannot thank Jennifer Ring enough for the write up. It was great to tell my story and share some info about the collective (Fringe Creatives).
At the start of this month, I made a promise to myself to put in the time. I made a plan to spend a minimum of one hour each day towards my practice as an artist. Typically I would always put creating artwork last on my list of things to do because I always felt so overwhelmed with the day-to-day to do list, work schedules for my 3 income producing jobs and my one job that brings in zero dollars (Fringe). I realized that in order for me to be what I want to be, to achieve what I want to achieve, that I have to start putting myself first. I have been adhering to my one hour a day routine and most days I end up putting in more than just one hour. This has really opened my mind, actually it’s totally shifted my mindset. I am excited to create more and show more of MY work publicly. Something that I’ve put on the back burner for over two years now.
Also, I am working on a BIG commission. I am always quiet about these projects. I think its a combination of fear of failure and the fear of reactions I may get from others, while I try to propagate happiness there is always a few dark clouds out there who want to negate the good work or the achievements but I have to not care so much about that, I am excited to work on this three piece commission for USF Marine Sciences and I should be letting people know that. While it has been intimidating and it has been totally outside of my comfort zone taking on this project has taught me that my art IS accepted and that there are others out there who see it through the same eyes that I do. I am spending all day in my studio and will be disconnected from the world to finish these pieces up. I cannot wait to unplug and create.
As for the months to come...October is full of bright beautiful things as well and it feels really good to have found this little sweet spot of momentum in my art practice. I excited to allow this next season of creativity to reveal itself in its own time as it offers me new inspiration and direction.
Have you recently stumbled upon your "fierce"? Have you re-designed your practice to offer you more opportunity to create? I'd love to hear about your journey. Leave me a comment below with some of your magic.